Childhood mind

Can you cry about every thing you don't like?
Seeing things you never saw... made that you cry?
Did you ever thought about that? I did.
Maybe there is some reason for it.
Can you hear me whispering?
You can, if you just listen to your heart.
Even if you think with your mind.
You will think of me.

Did you saw me in your dreams?
Or was it real.....?

Can you explain that?
What?
The feeling of this.
Tell me what this is, because I don't know.

I asked my self why?
Didn't had a clue.
Just knowing that you don't know.
Makes me think.
Why do I do that to myself?
Making my live sad, like this.

I looked for answers .
Books....books discripe it as a intense feeling inside.
Humans are lead by it.
Will that say that we depent on it?

artist call it love....
scientists call it passion....
paranormals call it the spirit....

How do I call it?
Live.....?

May we live our lives?
Can we?

I do hope so....

found this in some kind of loft room...
I wrote it myself ...
from precise 31-12-1999
special date I think .....

HO HO HO...

Merry Chrismast everyone

and a happy new year :D

hope you enjoined

my "stuff" for this year

I'm not gonna quit...

even if nobody reads it...

then it's a diary for myself.

what are you nagging about..

JUST HAVE A WONDERFUL NEW YEAR

and keep visiting my site, please!

Things that we think

faith
or destiney
depends
on you
and the way u choose
u may not answer
but still like the idee
of being together
with
this peacefull memorie

A memorie I will never forget

I was standing there
waiting... waiting for her to come.
I'm sweating.
She was still coming, right?
.....
And there she was,
coming through those doors.


When I saw his face,
....... a relieve.
Almost sorrowful,
but with a smile.....
Looking at me, while standing there...
Frozen.... no sign of breathing.


Walking on that floor,
the same way that I came in.
But the way ... how she walked,
differently..... beautifuller then I ever saw her.


Coming closer to him,
saw my parents sitting on my left.
Happy?.... I do hope so.
It's my time now.
I really do love him.
Standing next to him,
makes me so happy.
Could I ever life without his kidness?
I doubt it....


It's so bright that I ...
even couldn't see the dress she was wearing.
Her smile faide away from me.


Waiting for that answer.
Standing there.... waiting for that only word,
out his mouth.


Opening my mouth... trying to say that word.
I couldn't ... I almost thought.


Where was he waiting for...
the moment was there.
Still silence... he couldn't do it.


I was looking down,
but then I looked up against her face..
now I could.
.......
Only thing what's left is her word.


It's not so easy as I thought.
Could I say the world....
YES I could


dedicated to . . . . .

My satus lines :P

Glowing with pride to keep my family above the low waters.... do I have a choice?

Looking beyond the things we never saw will us look further

So do you and so do I... still you don't understand me. Things change after u know a person better. Will you ever going to understand me? You don't know... I know. Like I always say : loves and kisses, goodnight, sleepwell and goodluck for tomorrow.

Waiting for something to happen.... then could I wait for a very long time

Coming at a crossroad.... took another path then I usually would take. A fresh start, a new begin and a new story. But if I come back I would look at the other road.

Will the world ever stop? (you watched too many movies :P)

I was thinking about that, I had a lot of questions like I always do.

How the world came....

nothing and nothing is really something

and something and nothing is nothing but then againg you got

nothing and nothing makes is again something

it's like matchs, you know.
- and - = +
+ and - = -
Like a circle going around.