my Christmas card for you

A little story

If you don't understand the story that well.. :)

it's oke. Lame story any way.

26 December

It's christmas ... and soon new year.

I wish you all a healthy and good 2010 :)
May all your dreams come true... will it be filled with happiness.

And merry christmas to you all.

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Throughout the world is an image created about women. Sometimes ideal images and sometimes sexual ( the same about men). I don't like it when people go and create a picture that is false or bad. BUt who am I to judge about it. I am also guilty for one thing. I have some prejudices. Prejudices don't always mean it in a bad way. But the point I really wanted to make is generate our thoughts.

I talk too much about thougths etc. but look at that picture. If you aks a man what he sees, he will immediately say " it's a brah". ( I don't want to be discriminative, same goes for women). And he is right.But do think carefully. Is it just a brah? Maybe a woman who throws her brah away because she has breast cancer. Or ever thought of a naked girl with no brah? NOt one person would consider these thoughts when we see this picture. But is it true that we learend to have these thoughts and feelings about some pictures? Although our own feelings and thoughts we created is based on our experience. I'll stop, you are getting bored I see. Or not?

- hope alias -

Brain cracker :D

How further you look, how further it goes.
How bigger it becomes, how rounder it gets.
More light, less darkness.
Upside down isn't what it seems to be.
We can touch it, but we can't feel with it.
Connected in a way only our brains would understand.

What am I talking about? Do you know it?
Please tell me :) I will give the answer soon.

Good luck with it.
Your dearest friend,
- Hope Alias -

Chérie

I hope u like it :)

Waterlady

U may not see it well... but it's a woman on the water side.

Maria

My first hand-drawn drawing on this site hope u like it :)
although I have to say the face shape looks a lil weird.

winter breath

Winter cold and stormy weather.
Hold me thight, we will stay together.

This day.. isn't just a day.

On my own

If you are wondering if this is real blood... Yes it is.

Scarry right? It's a fact .. this happens every single day!

Silvia

I fond this tree in the middle of the woods. I really love this tree.
The fact that it is different, makes it just a lil bit more special. It has this mysterious atmosphere around it. Kinda spooky don't u think so? Makes me thing of witches. :) hahahaha.

.....Coming true?

Tip : look at this one from some distance :)

1 night stand

Nowadays, relationships don't less long. Nightclubs and cafe's are friendmakers..
But if these friendships remain for always.....? Nobody would know for sure.

Listen to mama !

While I was waiting for the traficlights like always.I got facinated by the colours of the bright lights. Amazing how people just follow up the rules. Some don't but there are acceptions always.

Can we live without any rules? I guess we can but we shouldn't
God,nature,society,court n more. Serounded by rules.
If I may give my own opinion..
I would say that rules should be here other wise we will have CHAOS.

But the questions is more..
Are those rules really good for us?

The world is changing, so are we.
Sticking to the same rules as in 1667 would made our socity worse.
Innovations... new experiences.
We learn, we grow.
How further we come .. how more we discover.

So everytime u read the rules.. Do you still think: " what a bullshit" ?
Could give u soo many examples that we should follow the rules.
But some of hem are there to be broken ;)

- Curious thoughts from Hope Alias -

Cloudy weather

Some hard feelings

noticed my mistake? yeah " an evil queen" sorry for the mistake.. can't ajust it any more.

When you got lost..

Girl you really need Tom Tom.. you are totally lost without him... HAHAH

Almost a fairy tale

I wonder if this story also have a happy ending..

what do you think?

My little life..

I while ago.. I left.
This is the beginning..what I took when I left.

Some new friends.. and a new job
But i'm still using the same god damn mob.

I think that god has forgotten me.. for who I am and for what I did.
Does that make me still that same old kid?

It could be that blues.. what I had on sunday night.
Will put some new shoes on... and everything will be alright!


Isn't it pathetic? There is a secret message in it.. Can you find it?

Like me ..?

I don't wanna hear the sound of cracking chair because of me
I don't wanna hear the sounds of bad words not any more this time.

Hear the sound of my heart
the beat that never stopped
keeps me going on like this

Please forgive me, I never ment to be like this.

Efil rou fo ecnad

I still remeber the days,
that I stood on that stage.

The first dance I had,
is something I will never forget.

Graceful movements,
lead my way.

Never thought about that,
in the same way this day.

I can barley stand on my own feet,
hoping that it would be defeat.

With pain in my heart,
I had to let go of this art.

The passion that I had,
made me gone mad.

But now I know,
this was the of my show.

God's hand

The way I bent my head

The circle......

It is one of my favourites symbols
It holds lots of misteries i think :)

A circle stays a circle, doens't matter in which way you turn it .
A circle can symbol light as well as darkness.
The light of the sun or the black hole of evil.

A circle can lead our way..
the first clock was in the shape of a circle (sun dials)
the compass was also made in the shape of a circle.

The cirlce connects us..
through a weddingring or just a simple dance ,we hold our hands and make a circle.

A circle is used for a lot of things...
from scriptions to witch spells.

Not to forget the earth.. and yes, also our planet has the shape of a circle (not a square)I

If you studied some science.... you know that molecules and atoms are drawn in circles.
Also it's pretty difficult to calculate the real size of a circle... we use formulas and stuff (r²xπ).

But you never get the exact answer... pity although.

" The circle of life" of course everybody knows that line.
(even if you didn't saw the lion king)

The cirlce doesn't stop .... no endings at all.
The end is just the beginning of a new round.

Meringue

Abattoir

Flowing red fluence on my hand.
Something that a human could not understand.

Feeling with lust what I could not bare.
The fear in my heart, it was unable to share.

The time is ticking,but I could not move.
I was not glad, neither did I aproved.

This moment broke so many hearts.
Only this was the beginning of a new start.

I packed them in a cage, did not released them for a age.
Making noises, out of rage.

I had to puke and that was all.
That was the last time, that I stand between those walls.

I did the right thing

7:15 am

She just woke up.
Having a silky pyjama on.
Only rich kids could affort that.
I will speak to her later!

10:22 am

Look at her..
laughing with her friends
flirting with the soccer team.
*pffffffff*
Unbelievable!
How could she be happy like that.

12:02 pm

She is going to the ladies restroom.
Unfortunately I can't go in there.
Would like to see her..
how she gossips about her own friends!
powdering her pretty face..
I feel sorry for her.

14:35 pm

Schools out.
Meeting her boyfriend outside.
Loverboy is taking her back home on his disgusting yellowish bike.
I wish he would cause a crash and break all the bones in his body!

15:20 pm

Making out for hours.
I hate this guy.. He should not even touch her!
He will get his payment for this.
What they have done to me.

16:30 pm

I have to wait for some time.
She is having dinner with her ohhh soo pround parents.
Disgusting!

21:34 pm

She finally put out the light.
Now...
it's my turn.

21:40 pm

I'm soo close that I can hear her breathing.
I can smell her
I'm gonna observe my prey for a while.
Soon I will release her from all her badness.

22:30 pm

My hands are getting sweaty.
The knife is ready to taste the blood of her innocent body.
Holding it thight in my hand.
It could not slip away.
Neither my thoughts for this evil girl could slip away.
I will rescue the world for this!

22:35 pm

Everything is going the way I want it.
I cut the right artery.
The cleaner will clean up this bloody mess.
They can affort it!
Thank god .. that her parents where out.
She screamed a lot.
I just have to move her to the lake.
I might as well go to the loch and get rid of her there.
They will thank me for this later.

1:23 am

I'm very tired now.

I didn't thought she was that heavy.

Now I only got to wait..

waiting for her parents to get home

and I will explain everything.

Life would be a much better place now.....

Corridors

Email card to ...

An Asian beauty

I find that this one speaks for it self. No words needed...
or maybe a few? What do you think ?

Olifantany

I tried to write it right:)

Such unknown script is very difficult to write for me. I hope you could still read it :). And if you can't read it..

Just use your fantasy ;)

You will figure it out.

Is it just me?

made this one for a request :)

No help

From the lips

I hope u like it. I couldn't chose between them. Which one do you like more?

The truth

First appearance

* ding - dong * deliveryman

As long as you want it

Ellinor said...

"Walking in a yard full of mindless heads,
looking at those past ages. "
Ellinor said.

"Ghost searching for there own losts,
without even knowing that they past."
Ellinor said.

"A diamond blinds you with her shinning beauty,
while the beauty of rough diamond only can be seen from the inside."
Ellinor said.

" Don't be sad, for the things you forget.
They will come back once u remember them."
Ellinor said.

Peacy

No msg on this one!

Excavate in the innerside

I hope u have liked my stuff so far :)
My words won't be complete if I just don't do it right.
(yep that didn't really made sence, I know)
What I'm actaully trying to say is that...I'm doing this for quiet a time.
Just wanna say that whenever I write or whatever I write is based on fiction and real life.
I'm not trying to make you sad or something. This is just the way I write.
Deep feelings always had been in me. That doesn't mean I'm not happy person :D
Someone (not saying any names) was a bit concerned about me.
I would be also if I read these things. Looks a bit like I'm in a suicide mood.
Please belief me, I'm full of joy and happyness. Looking forward to my great life.
My dear Axl, thank you for the concernedness.

"Only the ones who know history will see the future"

Thing that I love

The expressions of my lady

When I was lost

This one is for a friend of mine,

I wanted to thank him for giving me a programme to draw

now I can keep going on with my "work", what i certanly enjoy

I hope you like it also :)

Nightmare from Venus

A walk in the park

Another day with a new flower

You maybe have notice my obession with flowers :)

I just like them so much because they are very colourfull, they could have a lovely smell (some flowers do smell like shit, but you can't have everything) .

I just love it that they close when it's going to be dark. Have you ever seen a tree close up? I didn't.

And they can also symbol a lot of things, like love, grief, happyness.

Happy bunnies day :D

Cross my hearth

Mandorla

Once upon a time there was a old man, sitting in a shepherd's shed.
Looking out of the window while he was thinking.
Thinking of the summer...... Happy days were that he said to himself.
It was such a long time a go when even saw sunshine.

Days go by, weeks, months and years flow by.
Every second of a moment, he didn't realised it.
No receive... cut of from the outside.
Bringing his lonely days behind the window glass.

Then the unexpected happened...
While his eyes opened wider, his hearth was beating faster.
He ran to the door.
But when the time was there to open the door,
there was a moment of doubt.

A unknown force pushed the door open.
Robust squall entered the shed.
When he looked out side, he saw that there was a strange faint shadow.
For just a second he closed his eyes.
There was nothing, gone....

Writen words were the remains.

Little wings, evil eyes and an sinister smile made it perfect.The paper would not curl up from fear.Colours will not change of the dark.Only the one who controles it could lose his temper.

Now he knew, he would never come out of that shed again....

Just dream on my little boy

A little lullaby for you.
That I couldn't take care of you.

But still I find it difficult to,
to be without you.

sleepwell,

I love you.

The holy bird

little me and Mr G

Note: the pink letters on the diary is kinda off the hook I think.

Isn't looking that nice but will survive one failure.

Loverboys

Hearing it on the radio or TV.
Reading it in the newspaper.
Almost everyday.

Why doesn't it stop?
Why can't they stop?
Why do they do it?
It's everywhere
It's a pleasure for them and pain for us

?

It's so easy to write it over and over. We all know that we think of him or her every day but when we finally see him or her...

we can't breath

our heart beat is razing

and the only thing we have in our minds is... I love you.

I wish loving was so easy... but it isn't

hoping for the best than...

Call it childish

This art style is also know as herman brood. It's something what most people find weird or not real art. But remember everything is art when you look it in a way.. like I do.

Light or dark

Can you see the difference between just a light or a dark colour. It changes a lot. What do you like the most... white or black, dark or light?

Little spring

For you

You aren't alone

Explosive flower

Postcard for you

You

I'm going to find you

and leave you behind

I'm going to leave you

in the way it should be

No where we going

and no where we seem to be

Together and Happy fully

Dead is one thing

you showed to me

Silence and peace

will not be released

Only without me

1 Sentence

Getting to high notes from an ancient float.
Losing my pain in treasure of stones.
Aches will be locked up in a heart.
Shining jewels transform into heavy sandstorms.
Nature will turn her back to the roguish people.
Obvious is the sun when clouds come by.
Salt injures the wound but also heals it.
Tarot cards reveal the future but can not change the past.

Brought it back in the way it should be.
Rain dropping from above let creatures grow beneath the surface
Innocent as a new-born baby, who comes into life
Neglected in the past but discovered with golden hands
Gain influence upon those mighty knights
Stubborn in the morning, and submissive in the night

Follow the road as it was described by the angels, will only lead you to hell
Rustle will not take the authority of sound as long as there is silence
Evil will always win from good, does that mean we always lose
Equator, the centrum of earth will go cross the other lines
Demanding for money is the only thing what moneygrubbings can do
Oceans will not stop scorched from drying out
Medicine could heal almost everything but regretful no broken heart

Türkörkép

Her hair was black as the night,
waving into the wind.

A face without any fear,
the unknowing embellished her.

A smile what could return the dead,
framed with delicate red lips.

Reddish cheeks on a pale skin.
embraced by light and warmth

She had those elegant hands,
only a thouch was needed to make a heart of stone full of love.

Sparking eyes,
so dark but yet so light.

But she will always stay
an humble woman.

Mr. A

Today is a very loving and carrying day.

Valentine. Most people think it presents love.

A day you can say: "I love you!"

But actually we should love them everyday.

not only one day in the year.

Don't give the chocolates or flowers,

so that the loves ones know that you know it was valentines day.

.........................

When there was no woman,

there wasn't a man.

No love,

no future.

Could live with the past,

but that wasn't the last.

As further we go,

the harder it will flow.

A statement is all we get,

what shouldn't be regret.

End this day with peace,

let it be released.

Kind of sad,

bringing this soo bad.

Don't forget,

love is the thing we won't

............

Prayer from God

Said good bye,
in many ways.

Told you why,
in different ways.

Hoped for luck,
all these days.

Lacuna

Falling leaves,
a sign of God.

Marking renaissance on a leaf...

Why worry about the time,
when you have all the time of the world.

Coming back

turn over a new leaf

The North Landers

The time has come.....

People feared for this time of year.
Hunger was only a small part of the suffering.

Dark, short days...
Prisoners from the place they call home.

They came at sunset ....
and went away with sunrise.

Sowing fear and destruction
to the villagers this prison.

They came from the high North...
Coming with the Nother wind.

Giving lands the gift...
a gift of death and life.

When the flow by..
a heart of cold came.

Grass became hard..
Flowers closed there eyes...
Trees are shocked by them...

The only cure was spring. Earth turned just as the sun

Sadness and fear light up...

The earlyest flower tryed opening her eyes. Birds came back, Plants started to grow, form love of this sun.

The North Landers vanished.. away from birth and rebirth.

It was balance who kept them alive in that anxiety and emptiness.

Greets form The North Landers

....why?

Lost my chain.. a new scar on my body restarts a different memory

Interbellum

Standing between two wars.

Neither one of them knew what would happen.

But he knew...
his hearth could never heal again.

Hate was going through his hearth.
His eyes full of fire.
He couldn't realise it any more.
Blind from the truth...

This piece of paper changed him..
and his family.

He thought that grown up people should know those things.
What they said was more then dreadful.

He didn't understand it...
They used to be loving eachother.

Summer had ended,
autumn came started.

Leaves falling down,
hope was the last thing he had.
But that was futile.

Until the latest hours he prayed.
Useless, not a human or animal would listen.
His faith was gone...
For God
Allah
Brahma
Jaweh

Winter stared the end.
Alone, apart from the others.

He knew it.
This was the end of a war.

Peace came back,
his life was under construction.

Red

When they see it..
they are scared of it.

It brings life...
but also the death.

The colour of love..
and also hate.

It can be soft...
a warm feeling.

Saying it in all kind of ways...
all sorts of languages.

It will not change..
it will be a word with a meaning.

A meaning..
what everybody understands.

A story that must been told

One night... like always. On the block of the street.
I was finding myself in some kind of a pub.

Sitting at the bar
just sitting...waiting, for what I don't know.
dunk a couple of beers....

I had enough off all this
called myself a cap.

laying down my last euro's
on the bar...

Cap arrived....
banging on that horn.
No patience any more these days.

"To Sint.Cathrina str. 56C, please."
"What is a young lady like yourself doing up so late?"
"Nothing special."
"Mmm.. those damn cops never sleep."

A man with a uniform stepped out off the policecar, coming closer to the cap.
Making a sign... with his hands.

"Good evening sir, could I see your licens"
"Good evening sir to you to, uhh well offersir it is like this..
it's already late and I was going ...."
"Madam could step out of the vehicle?"

I steped out. Thinking that walking would go faster. I stand out side in the cold.
Looking at my feet.
A way for the cap. Something was going on there.
But would it be wise to interupt? I had already enough problems...

"Madam, I'm sorry but this man can't drive any more."
"Oh no problem, I can walk."
"I could drive u home madam."
"No need officer, I can handle it."

So off I went... into the cold of darkness.
Luck wasn't on my side... but still I had the world in my hand.
Beautiful things in this life weren't seen by the "ordinary people"

Laughing into nothing... only my own mind could know what I thought.
We are all special.
While thinking of that I was walking through the night.
Destiny... I had but also roam around is a destination to...

.............

My head, my memorie
nothing like... like some one cut a part out of my life
only a flash of light.

..............


Screaming....
Words you don't want to hear.
Blood, desire, fear
I can't put those things on paper..
no words
no sounds
no image
only feelings

...............

Next morning, I wasn't myself me I
looking around me.

elimination , liquidation , terminating

Like war... I thought it would ever end.

anxious, fear, afraid, frightened, scared...

those words say nothing... about this feeling.

.............

pangs of death

...............

I couldn't....
I was standing for hours in the shower...
it wasn't getting off me
it didn't matter how long I would scrub myself
I could never wash it off me...
Burnt the clothes.

Breathing in the air....of evil?
Burning in my eyes....
bleeding..
from my heart.

I still feel it...
see it.....
The pain...
so fresh in my memorie...

After all those years I still remember.

I could never forget this...
never...ever.....

But looking in the past isn't an option any more for me...
I look forward to....

the future...... it will be a secret ...what I still wonder.

Looking further

The angle hides in a secret box... that will been seen as the answer will be found.

do u understand this one?

A little joke

A girl said to her father: "Dad, can I have a pony?"
the father answered and said: " Cut yourself one then."

wasn't funny .. I know.. still I laughing about this stupid joke :P

Forgetting

Sometimes we forget things.
Things that are very important.
We don't realise that those little things in life are very important.
Also the little things have a meaning in our life.

Understanding of this is very difficult for some of us.
In my land people say: "my stupid mind".
But have u ever seen a mind that's stupid?
How could a mind be stupid...mmm
A bit of a cliche if you ask me.

My point is even you don't understand what I'm saying,
you will understand.

A friend of mine said it was our unconscious.
Who let us understand.
And I think he is right...